Gravity by Renee Porter

Author:Renee Porter [Porter, Renee]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Published: 2016-05-08T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 12

“Do you want to come in?” Maddie jingled her keys opening the door wide. I took a step forward to follow but held back. My mind went swiftly to the car ride home, driving across PCH with the ocean stretching limitlessly to the horizon. We had been mostly quiet, enjoying the beautiful sights which paled in comparison when I would glance to my right. I had come to realize that watching Maddie when she is unaware was my most favorite past time. She was stunning in her contemplation and at times I wish I knew what she was thinking. If it was something she was concerned about, maybe even a happy memory, maybe she was thinking about me?

But as I stood there thinking, watching Maddie waiting for my response, I suddenly grew nervous, scared, insecure. Maddie was a beautiful, talented and all around stunning person. For god’s sake she was gorgeous and I realized way out of my league. No matter if I knew Maddie had feelings for me, how did I know that she wouldn’t leave at my innate ability to be everything geeky and stupid. How could I compete with the thousands of women that were in her league? The models and actresses that would stand in line for only one chance to be with her?

“Actually, I think I’m going to head home. It was a long day,” I finally said.

She seemed disappointed but didn’t comment on my change of mood. Again, so much was left unsaid. It seemed to be a pattern with the two of us, mainly because of me.

As I said goodnight and walked home I turned my head to the sky. Wondering if my father’s star was looking at me. Did he see me as a streak across his sky? Just a brief glowing grain of sand running quickly as possible away from the comfort of the blanketing darkness? I wish that I could talk to him, ask him if I was doing it right, this thing that I call a life. But a sickness enveloped me because I knew I didn’t need his advice. And as I walked up the stairs and made it to my room I admonished myself for not taking Maddie up on her offer. Because I knew what that offer had meant. I knew that I would have shown her my true feelings but yet again, here I was, alone. What was I so afraid of?

I opened the blinds to my window and peered out across the way. Maddie’s was already unlocked, the light breeze of the night fluttering her curtains and her blonde waves. She stared back at me, her feet propped on the branch in front of her, her hands holding a familiar looking book.

I undid the lock on my own window and pulled up allowing the night air to give its soft caress across my face.

“It’s good. Better than the last, I think,” she said. I raised my eyebrows giving her a soft smile.

“You’ve read it all?” If she had I don’t know why she looked so sad.

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